The Easter Egg Sized Bump In The Road!
The Easter period has thrown me off. And if you’re someone who struggles with disordered eating, you’ll get exactly what I mean when I say… a lack of routine can really mess with your head and well-being.
I struggle with change in routine and the holidays mean everything shifted at once. My son’s been at holiday clubs, staying up later so we get time together which means I’ve had less proper downtime to reset. I’ve been prepping for an interview (stress), got big family events coming up (+more stress), and everywhere you look it’s chocolate, sweets, “treat yourself” vibes (final straw). It’s normalised, it’s constant, and when you’re already a bit stressed, it hits differently. I get this same feeling around Christmas which is much louder and I dread it every year.
I fell into a pattern for a few days. Restricting all day, then coming home and scoffing biscuits because I’m tired, stressed and need a pick me up. Rushed mornings, no structure, just that off feeling where nothing’s quite grounded and there’s an air of uncertainty. It’s been a 3–4 day cycle and yeah, I’m annoyed at myself.
There’s a difference this time… I caught it early. I keep reminding myself that an overeat is not the same as a binge. Before this might’ve turned into £30 food orders filled with sweets and chocolate, this time it was a few biscuits and a share size chocolate bar. To some that’s awful but for me that’s growth, whether my head wants to admit it or not.
This time I’m not going to sit here and tear myself apart over it. That mindset is what keeps the cycle going.
I’m just going to start again. I’m going to attempt for this to not be a dramatic, all-or-nothing way. Just back to basics that I know work:
- Routine
- Consistency
- Meal prep
- Wake up times
- Exercise
- Time to reset
- Bed times
All the boring, unglamorous things that actually keep me steady. Falling off doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It just means something shifted and now it’s time for you to adjust, adapt and overcome.
Starting over doesn’t need to wait for Monday. It starts with now and your next choice.
Hi, I'm Emilia Isabelle 
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